CNS Consul Report #18 - November 18th, 2006
Interesting week.
Total CON Emails: 54
If any of you have noticed, Kat Pridemore, your Proconsul, was promoted to Epis. And yet as much as I pushed for the promotion, it doesn't feel like a joyous event. That is a damn shame.
I have spent the last week thinking about the nature of this organization. I have said many times to many different people that this is not the same DB it used to be say, 8 years ago. And, I tell this to people who sit around doing nothing but complain about how the DB is run and yeah, how it ain't what it used to be. And yet, here I am falling under the same circumstance. The DB 7 years ago was much easier back then than it is today. It was almost too easy.
This week posed certain serious questions about the nature of CNS and the nature of the DB. Is this democracy and voting mentality that I've been trying to promote really the best way of doing things? It just seems to me that pursuing that course of action really leads to what we see on TV on the news: that the people who scream the loudest win. Ever watch political talk shows? Yeah.
In order for this to work, the leadership has to know what the issues are and what's concerning people. I am not able to ascertain what you guys are thinking anymore. As Consul, it is obvious that a lot of you are merely telling me what I want to hear, and sometimes I do feel that I am being manipulated, and yet all I can really do is just accept things as I see it because I lack the capability to look deeper into these things.
Something new happened to me this week. Two people actually asked me if I was feeling okay. I mean, four months of being CON and 3 months of being PCON before that, and while I spent my entire time freaking out over whether or not the people in my clan were happy, nobody ever bothered to ask me how I was feeling. And, to the two who did ask me, I appreciate it.
The fact of the matter is, the events of this week have made me trust you guys a little less than I used to. I don't know if that's just a consequence of being a Consul or not. I get the feeling that you guys will only support me as long as I make decisions that make you guys happy. I see it on IRC. I see you guys all uncharacteristically talking and crap on IRC when things you want to happen, happen. And a lot of you talk to me in this cryptic manner as if you were all wise sages and that freaks me out, because I'm 25 years old and I don't know a damn thing about life.
I now know what it is to feel pain and I now know what it feels like to not want to go onto IRC. I think not being on IRC much is as close to a LoA as I will ever take. It's remarkable how little there is for me to do in this club when I'm not on IRC. It's also remarkable how relaxing my real life is.
I think I will continue doing this for another week at least. Don't worry, I'll still reply to emails and things. But, it will be a while before I think I'm back to normal again.
I figure the House Feud officially begins in a matter of hours. Based on the way some people are talking about it, I'm worried that some of you are taking this a little TOO seriously. Based on my experience, I don't remember being in HLK and going to HMR and saying, "You guys suck!" or anything. For me, it was just an opportunity to get some crescents. But that's me.
http://nagasadow.org/feud/main.html
I guess there's not much for me to do for the next month. It looks like it'll be an interesting competition, and I look forward to seeing what you guys can do.
Wow, I still only got the one submission from Malik for the graphics event. I guess this will be really easy to grade.
Well, there's the big promotion of our Consul, Kat Pridemore, to Krath Epis. Well, I think it was well deserved, which I guess is pretty important since I'm the one who submitted it.
I also noticed a remarkable number of lower level promotions. The bright spot in my week, I guess.
I'm not really going to go into detail, but a ton of medals went out at the conclusion of Thorin's trivia. Seriously, an ungodly number of crescents and LSSes (yes, I don't call it the LS like other people do, I call it the LSS).
In last week's ICTE, Xayun got 9 CFs, I got 2 CFs, and Talon Jade got 1 CF. I didn't get to participate in this weekend's ICTE because I didn't feel like going on IRC. I bought a 1000 page book on the history of World War 2 and it's fascinating.
Oh, I took 2nd place in the Sunday Tournament from two weekends ago.
My little IRC break is going to seriously jeopardize my 1000 CFs by the end of 2006 goal I had. I need 79 more CFs
Thorin was given a Steel Cross for his work as a Magistrate to the MAA.
sigh
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